How I Benefit From You Being Here..

Lending You My Ears, while I'm selling you my fears.. (Villagers - Becoming a Jackal.)


If you've stumbled upon this blog whilst on your way to a more glamorous web destination.. don't go, I plan to do some regular features on my blog, it's going to all be very good. So, keep your eyes and minds wide open, and stay here.


I hope you had a lovely Sunday afternoon. I try to always be at home around 4pm on a Sunday, in time for the only couple of totally guilt free, empty, alone hours of the week. I tend to light a scented candle and listen to the radio. It's the best time to think about the week just gone and the week ahead... Enjoy these quiet Sunday photos...(found at various locations on tumblr.)

(Although, I can't possibly fault how incredibly awesome a Sunday evening of the best chat and a heart on fire can be..)

I feel like the shadows

I don't even bother for (Warpaint, Shadows.)

I got some tarot cards for Christmas and have been practicing reading them a lot. It's looking quite likely that this will end up being me in 40 years time...

Photograph found at the 'Hey Hot Shot' photo competition blog, by Jennifer Garza-Cuen.

In the morning..

I'll call you. (Bon Iver, oh so compulsory with anything snow related.)



It's only the start of January and it's gloomy and grey outside. Instead of wishing for warmer climes, I'm longing for the powder up in the mountains. Ready for days of snow boarding, lunch in the snow with a paper cup of mulled wine. Followed by long nights next to open fires, inside log cabins with lethal cocktails.

I don't know just what it's all about..

but put on your red pajamas and find out.. (The velvet underground- some kinda love.)


I'm still relishing in the luxury of having a whole years worth of untouched days ahead of me. So, here are a few words on the new year, from an utterly brilliant role model of mine; Jarvis Cocker:


'This years going to be like one big party. We've been waiting so long for this, the fact that we're together, vibing off each other everyday - just finding that I'm more into you with every passing day, it's just going to get better and better.

Let's start as we mean to go on.'

Thankyou notes and stamps.

I printed some lovely (FREE) note-cards to send thankyou notes on. Thankyou notes are a nice way to show your appriciation and ensure that you get a good Christmas present next year.

I used these:





Click on the pictures for the links. I printed them onto thin white card, using best quality print settings!

the start of a great big year.

HAPPY NEW YEAT ALL.

My celebrations were fantastic. Judging by the way it all started I think it's going to be a good year, filled with positive and creative people.
I wish everyone a brilliant year ahead. 2011 is going to be a big year; with more heart and more soul than any that came before it. Good luck and best wishes to every single person I have ever met.

The Love Song of Alfred Prufrock - TS Elliot.

When the evening is spread out against the sky
Like a patient etherised upon a table;
Let us go, through certain half-deserted streets,
The muttering retreats	5
Of restless nights in one-night cheap hotels
And sawdust restaurants with oyster-shells:
Streets that follow like a tedious argument
Of insidious intent
To lead you to an overwhelming question …	10
Oh, do not ask, “What is it?”
Let us go and make our visit.
In the room the women come and go
Talking of Michelangelo.
The yellow fog that rubs its back upon the window-panes,	15
The yellow smoke that rubs its muzzle on the window-panes
Licked its tongue into the corners of the evening,
Lingered upon the pools that stand in drains,
Let fall upon its back the soot that falls from chimneys,
Slipped by the terrace, made a sudden leap,	20
And seeing that it was a soft October night,
Curled once about the house, and fell asleep.
And indeed there will be time
For the yellow smoke that slides along the street,
Rubbing its back upon the window-panes;	25
There will be time, there will be time
To prepare a face to meet the faces that you meet;
There will be time to murder and create,
And time for all the works and days of hands
That lift and drop a question on your plate;	30
Time for you and time for me,
And time yet for a hundred indecisions,
And for a hundred visions and revisions,
Before the taking of a toast and tea.
In the room the women come and go	35
Talking of Michelangelo.
And indeed there will be time
To wonder, “Do I dare?” and, “Do I dare?”
Time to turn back and descend the stair,
With a bald spot in the middle of my hair—	40
[They will say: “How his hair is growing thin!”]
My morning coat, my collar mounting firmly to the chin,
My necktie rich and modest, but asserted by a simple pin—
[They will say: “But how his arms and legs are thin!”]
Do I dare	45
Disturb the universe?
In a minute there is time
For decisions and revisions which a minute will reverse.
For I have known them all already, known them all:—
Have known the evenings, mornings, afternoons,	50
I have measured out my life with coffee spoons;
I know the voices dying with a dying fall
Beneath the music from a farther room.
So how should I presume?
And I have known the eyes already, known them all—	55
The eyes that fix you in a formulated phrase,
And when I am formulated, sprawling on a pin,
When I am pinned and wriggling on the wall,
Then how should I begin
To spit out all the butt-ends of my days and ways?	60
And how should I presume?
And I have known the arms already, known them all—
Arms that are braceleted and white and bare
[But in the lamplight, downed with light brown hair!]
It is perfume from a dress	65
That makes me so digress?
Arms that lie along a table, or wrap about a shawl.
And should I then presume?
And how should I begin? . . . . .
Shall I say, I have gone at dusk through narrow streets	70
And watched the smoke that rises from the pipes
Of lonely men in shirt-sleeves, leaning out of windows?…
I should have been a pair of ragged claws
Scuttling across the floors of silent seas. . . . . .
And the afternoon, the evening, sleeps so peacefully!	75
Smoothed by long fingers,
Asleep … tired … or it malingers,
Stretched on the floor, here beside you and me.
Should I, after tea and cakes and ices,
Have the strength to force the moment to its crisis?	80
But though I have wept and fasted, wept and prayed,
Though I have seen my head [grown slightly bald] brought in upon a platter,
I am no prophet—and here’s no great matter;
I have seen the moment of my greatness flicker,
And I have seen the eternal Footman hold my coat, and snicker,	85
And in short, I was afraid.
And would it have been worth it, after all,
After the cups, the marmalade, the tea,
Among the porcelain, among some talk of you and me,
Would it have been worth while,	90
To have bitten off the matter with a smile,
To have squeezed the universe into a ball
To roll it toward some overwhelming question,
To say: “I am Lazarus, come from the dead,
Come back to tell you all, I shall tell you all”—	95
If one, settling a pillow by her head,
Should say: “That is not what I meant at all.
That is not it, at all.”
And would it have been worth it, after all,
Would it have been worth while,	100
After the sunsets and the dooryards and the sprinkled streets,
After the novels, after the teacups, after the skirts that trail along the floor—
And this, and so much more?—
It is impossible to say just what I mean!
But as if a magic lantern threw the nerves in patterns on a screen:	105
Would it have been worth while
If one, settling a pillow or throwing off a shawl,
And turning toward the window, should say:
“That is not it at all,
That is not what I meant, at all.” . . . . .	110
No! I am not Prince Hamlet, nor was meant to be;
Am an attendant lord, one that will do
To swell a progress, start a scene or two,
Advise the prince; no doubt, an easy tool,
Deferential, glad to be of use,	115
Politic, cautious, and meticulous;
Full of high sentence, but a bit obtuse;
At times, indeed, almost ridiculous—
Almost, at times, the Fool.
I grow old … I grow old …	120
I shall wear the bottoms of my trousers rolled.
Shall I part my hair behind? Do I dare to eat a peach?
I shall wear white flannel trousers, and walk upon the beach.
I have heard the mermaids singing, each to each.
I do not think that they will sing to me.	125
I have seen them riding seaward on the waves
Combing the white hair of the waves blown back
When the wind blows the water white and black.
We have lingered in the chambers of the sea
By sea-girls wreathed with seaweed red and brown	130
Till human voices wake us, and we drown.